So I'm learning that the only one who'll never let you down, and the one that you can always trust to be consistent in personality and character, is God.

There's a tendency to build up an image of someone in your mind, only to be disappointed later when, simply by the default of imperfect human nature, they don't live up to your grand assumptions and impossible expectations.

Wish I hadn't had such expectations.

In the paraphrased words of Miss Jo March, "I wish I didn't have a heart."
Because then I wouldn't have to fight so hard to keep it safe.

Wish my feelings wouldn't go running off so easily. It's tiring to be always chasing after them to stop them. And it's so hard to stop them.

I suppose that, since energy and will are- to my observation- more finite and limited than emotions and thoughts, there will come a point when one can no longer bridle his or her waking dreams, but may only sit back and watch, helpless to stop the heart from running whichever way it pleases.

That's where, then, the infinite power of God must intervene, else the fallible human soul would soon stumble and be shattered.

Let that grace be on me.

Cold weather is here!!

Really, this is such perfect weather. If Bangkok was like this all the time, it'd be like some kinda Paradise City. I feel like one of the luckiest people in the world to be right here right now where it's cool and constantly windy, not too cold, but just enough to give you a slight shiver and a huge smile. =D

Man, it's been busy. The play is 1 week away! Time flies, insanely. Time should get a ticket for speeding.

So things are getting hectic. So much work to do, coinciding with test season, plus the play. Well I guess part of the stress could've been avoided if I hadn't gone to MBK with ppl after last Sat's morning rehearsal. We hung out and watched Quantum of Solace, which was fine, but then it took us more than 2 hours to get home. Stuck on the (non-aircon) bus in the sticky, humid, drizzle, with jussst enough space around my head to breathe comfortably. But that made for good chatting/bonding time between Becky, Tim, and I.

Yesterday's drama rehearsal was interesting. XD The stage floor has just been painted (to cover over the paint splats from all the set work that's been going on), and it's sticky, though it's dry. If you keep walking, it's no problem. But if you stand still for too long, your shoes get pretty darn stuck. Like when I was doing my serious, moody scene with Laurie, and I couldn't move when I needed to. Or when (same scene) I had to jump and hug him, I couldn't do that either. Had to awkwardly take a few seconds to un-stick, and then fly at him.

Plus yesterday, Marmee and Meg tried on their hoop skirts! HORRENDOUS CONTRAPTIONS. Don't know why they were ever "the fashion". All sorts of trouble, ranging from getting stuck in the doorway, to getting each others' hoops somehow linked together, to having them push out backwards high in the air when you hug someone.... hahahahahha. Hoops are funny when they're on other people. I'm not finding it so funny now, though, because I'm gonna have to wear the hoops too, soon. T_T

I'm off to bed now, since I have the chance to sleep early. =) Nite!